Death of a Dictator

Yesterday, Saddam Hussein was finally executed by hanging.

Before the hanging, I thought that he deserved to die as punishment for all the innocent people that he killed and tortured and all the families that he has broken.

However, when I saw the preparations being done before he was hanged, I had a change of heart. No one deserved to die as punishment for what he has done no matter how ruthless. He
should at least be given the chance to fight for his life.

Killing a killer does not set anything right. It would've been better if he were sentenced to life imprisonment so that he would at least be given the chance to reflect on his life.

What Saddam Hussein did to a lot of people was inhuman. But yesterday, I saw his humanity when he tried to hide his fear as he was being prepared for his execution.... and it made me think... What were the events which made him what he is now? What was he thinking when he did all the atrocities to the Iraqi people? What were the thoughts running through his head from the time of his trial to the time before he was executed?

Pamper Yourself

One of the key to recovering from life's setbacks is to pamper yourself.

Don't scrimp! Money is no object. You're pocket book may hurt but better your pocketbook than your heart right?

Untitled

A friend of mine told me that I’m crazy to let myself be that affected by a person. Well, I owe it to myself to grieve… and after this, I’m sure I’ll emerge a better and stronger person. That which doesn’t kill me only makes me stronger! Think of it an exercise in character building.

I'm sure that when I look back, I'm just gonna laugh at myself for making a big deal out of this.

In the meantime, here are the top 20 lines from songs which I think I can relate to... ULk! KADIRI hehe

20."coz you've made me stronger by breaking my heart/ you ended my life and made a better one start/ You've taught me everything from falling in love to letting go of a lie..." (Regine Velasquez: You Made me Stronger)

19."know I havent slept a wink at all since you've been gone/ and my eyes are kinda tired from crying all night long..." (Johnny Gill: Half Crazy)

18."there's a reason why people don't stay where they are/ baby, sometimes, love just aint enough/ now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you/ baby, you don't have to take the fall/ yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you..." (Patti Smyth: Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough)

17."leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do/ when you love someone as much as I love you/ oh I don't wanna leave you/ baby it tears me up inside/but I'll never be the one you're needing/ I love you, goodbye..." (Celine Dion: I love you, Goodbye)

16."the waking up is the hardest part/ you roll outta bed and down on your knees/ and for the moment you can hardly breathe..." (John Mayer: Dreaming with a Broken Heart)

15."voices tell me I should carry on/ but I am swimming in an ocean all alone/ baby, my baby it’s written on your face/ you still wonder if we made a big mistake/ I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you/ I’m awake but my world is half asleep/ I pray for this heart to be unbroken/ but without you all I’m going to be is incomplete..." (Backstreetboys: Incomplete)

14."all day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall/ all night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep/ because tomorrow might be good for something/ hold on I'm feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown/ I don't know why..." (Matchbox 20: Unwell)

13."there are things we wont recall/ feelings well never find/ its taken so long to see it/ cos we never seemed to have the time/ there was always something more important to do/ more important to say/ but I love you wasnt one of those things/ and now its too late/ do you remember..." (Phil Collins: Do you Remember)

12."I aint gonna cry/ and I won't beg you to stay/ if you're determined to leave boy/ I will not stand in your way..." (Mariah Carey: Always be my Baby)

11."but then I spent so many nights just thinking how you done me wrong/ I grew strong/ I learned how to get along..." (Gloria Gaynor: I will Survive)

10."now being without you takes a lot of getting used to/ should learn to live with it but I dont want to..." (Chicago: Hard Habit to Break)

9."I'd rather have hard times with you/ than good times with someone else/ I'd rather be beside you in a storm/ than safe and warm by myself/ I'd rather have hard times together/ than to have it easy apart..." (Luther Vandross: I'd Rather)

8."I thought that I was over you, but it's true, so true/ I love you even more than I did before, but darling, what can I do?/ for you don't love me, and I'll always be crying over you, crying over you..." (Roy Orbison: Crying)

7."I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for/ just remember where you're from and who you are/ cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new/ but if you ever lose your way/ I'll leave one on for you..." (Daniel Powter: Love you Lately)

6."Letting go is just another way to say I'll always love you so..." (Barry Manilow: Somewhere down the Road)

5."she could've gotten angry/and made me feel like a guilty child/ but I realized that never was her style/ I wanted her to hurt me/ and not treat me like a friend/
I wanted her to say there'd be someday/ I'd come crawling on my knees to ask her back..." (James Ingram: James Ingram)

4."if you should return to me/ we truly were meant to be/ so spread your wings and fly, butterfly..." (Mariah Carey: Butterfly)

3."I wish I could just make you turn around/ turn around and see me cry/ there's so much I need to say to you/ so many reasons why/ You're the only one/ who really knew me at all..." (Phil Collins: Against all Odds)

2."someday, we'll know why I wasn't meant for you..." (New Radicals: Someday We'll Know)

1."I refuse to give in to my blues/ that's not how it's going to be/ and I deny the tears in my eyes/ I don't want to let you see.. no/ that you have made a hole in my heart/and now I've got to fool myself/ I'll get over you.. I know I will/ I'll pretend my ship's not sinking/ and I'll tell myself I'm over you/'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking..." (Go West: King of Wishful Thinking)

Bottaca

I just got a new Bottaca rocking chair. Made from kamagong, it’s a lot better than rocking chairs made from rattan. I also prefer it to couches because it’s easier to clean and sturdier too. I just love my new chair!

Saying Goodbye

With everything, saying goodbye is never easy---be it to the good, the bad or things/events that just are.

Why do a lot of people cry during weddings, funerals, graduations or even when a colleague leaves? I think that it's because it symbolizes the end of one part of life and the beginning of another. Though beginnings are exciting events which we often look forward to, one can't help but fill a tinge of sadness what was once was becomes but a memory. It's only normal to dread changes which we encounter in life. Everybody's afraid of the unknown.

Right now, I'm once again at one of the crossroads in my life. Tough huh?! Thing is, we get more and more resistant to change as we get more rooted. So, right now, I'm having a hard time dealing with all the changes simultaneously happening in my life.

First is that I'm leaving my job soon to venture into business. I didn't really think that I would end up and be a businessman when I graduated in college. Then, I wanted to be a multilingual finance guy. However, God has other plans for me and I have to heed His call or else be miserable. The stability one gets from having a stable income every month from the company is very hard to leave behind but, one can't have everything and I had to choose. We'll all be teary eyed during my last day and that's that. After a day, everything will be back to normal.

Second is that my ex-boyfriend already has a girl. It's kinda stupid to feel sad when I was the one who broke up with him in the first place. But I guess that in this new chapter in his life, I should be prepared for a lot more changes which will be coming my way. Do I still love him? The answer is yes- I don't believe that a person can unlove one whom he/she has loved. My love could have evolved to a different kind of love but it's still love.

I seem to be depressed over the changes in my life but it's just a phase. I'm not afraid because I'm confident that I will be able to make the best out of these changes, with God's help of course.

It may sound silly but if you offer all your pains and hurts to God, He really takes a big load off your shoulders. God didn't really give me what I want to happen. He has His own plans which we may not yet understand now. But with patience, we will see how everything will fall into place. Faith really does work miracles.

I'm Back!

After a long sabbatical from blogging, I’m ultimately back in business. Never thought that I’d be back blogging this soon.

A lot of life changing events temporarily put my life on hold for a month! I spent a considerable amount of time sorting things out. Now, I’m looking forward to the future and the opportunities that it would bring.